Let's officially call this week "the week that I turned into the Hungry Caterpillar" (amazing children's book) because I swear if I was able to eat it, I would have. I don't know what got into me but right from the start of the week I just couldn't seem to shake the feeling of hunger. I definitely eat enough but no matter what I always wanted more and I just couldn't get it out of my mind. Of course, as this is such a mental process it's highly likely I wasn't hungry but it's hard to work that out when you're in the middle of it.
I should have known this week was going to be a problem for me as I went to the pub last Sunday and had the meal that you see below, cheese, onion and potato pie. That pie is huge and I typically never finish all of it along with the chips but of course I snorted the lot without a second glance, this should have been warning signs then.
Since I couldn't get rid of this feeling of "right, now what else can I eat?" I was trying to find meals that weren't too heavy on calories but would hopefully keep me happy such as what you see below which is Heck Chicken Italia sausages (180 calories for all of those sausages!) as well as the spaghetti at 107 calories and the Tesco's own waffle for 85 calories. This is effectively a children's dinner with not a vegetable in sight but I was willing to do anything to keep me on track.
By Thursday I was starting to realise that I was losing the battle this week but reasoning that although I was eating over my calories, the fact I do an hours workout at the gym every week day morning would fix everything. I have however noticed that now I'm a lot smaller the weight loss is not as forgiving and it is definitely getting harder but that's okay.
Despite all my best efforts to try and please my food cravings, the truth is, I just wanted to have a food binge - there, now I've said it. I just wanted to go back to the good old (fat) days where as I wandered into the kitchen as many times as I wanted and ate to my heart's content. I couldn't get that thought of my mind no matter how hard I tried.
Eventually, Saturday morning came around and it was time to make a decision. This weight loss is my rules, I started this so I say what goes, I'm doing it on my terms and you know what? I'm doing pretty damn fantastic so that's when I made an executive decision and decided to cancel this week. I said to myself "right Karen, enough is enough, eat what you like for this weekend. No weigh ins. You need to fix this urge in your head as it's gone on for days now and not showing any signs of going. Get back on this on Monday." I figured this could potentially last weeks and my weight loss journey completely collapse around me so it was time to take action. The moment I decided to do this, the relief was immense, literally like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders.
The first thing I did was had some biscuits that I had been wanting, I then went to the co-op and bought some delicious fresh baguettes and ham and made a sandwich. For my evening meal we went to Nandos, I just craved normality away from calorie counting.
I won't lie, I absolutely stuffed my face yesterday and mid afternoon something amazing happened, I was content. The hunger that has plagued me all week had gone to the point where as I actually said to myself that I was ready to get back onto eating well again, I didn't even need to wait until Monday, I was keen to start back today which is what I'm doing.
I'm pleased with how I've handled this week, I'll even say I'm proud of myself. I finally realised that I needed to address how I felt, the moment I did that I released it. I have a new eagerness and a fire in my belly for more weight loss again so although I will probably be working off some extra chub from the overeating, it's over and done with and will be more than gone by next Sunday so why let it bother me? Onwards and downwards!
- Every day we have a choice, it's a fresh start and the most important part from any healthy eating plan is to just try and make as many days, good ones.
- Losing a pound a week is still over three and a half stone in a year.
- If you're feeling particularly down about your weight, remember that if you stick to a balanced diet then by this time next week you could have dropped quite a few pounds, just the kick start you need to get going! Even just by cutting down on treats you could make a difference, how good would that feel?!
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