The struggle continues, every time I sit down to write this blog I wonder why I put myself through this. Eventually I remind myself it's because the lack of focus on my weight over the years has amounted to me being huge and struggling with everyday life. Although I hate to bang on about the same stuff week in, week out, the truth of it is I've totally lost my way with weight loss and I'm waiting to get that kick up the behind to get started again.
I find setting a goal can go two ways, either it works well and you enjoy getting closer and closer to it or it freaks me out and I rebel and give up before I've even tried. I'm going to a big event soon with many people I know that haven't seen me since I started losing weight and I would love to feel my best there. On the other hand, I'm trying to not put too much focus on it as I know I'll just binge and self sabotage.
Generally I eat fairly decent meals, it's the desserts and sweets that kill me. As if that's not bad enough, it's the secret binges.
Since I'm absolutely useless, I haven't weighed myself this morning. I think I need to detox, go back to basics as I know within a couple of days I'll start to feel like me again. I'm absolutely maniac with appointments from Wednesday to Saturday so my plan is to swoop in then as I will have minimal time to even get to the shops, never mind binge eat!